flux then redux

it has come to my attention that i am behaving like a sappy bastard, discontented with the road that has unraveled itself before me. but there is only one road and it leads straight, therefore i trudge along it, sometimes lonesome, sometimes weary, and other times jovially.
in this state of lurching forward without making the necessary preparations, i trip and often fall. perhaps it would be wise for me to get ready and to focus on focusing.
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my inner qi and my outer taste buds are craving for some good chai now.
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am i pretentious or what?
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queer theory