an update

i stumble across campus like a forlorn lover, still enraptured by philadelphia and full of contempt for grantham. it's more the case of me being cross for having to sit in my room all day without a vehicle at my disposal; the grocery list keeps getting longer.
this j-term is funny - usually classes would have been cancelled around this period on account for it being snowy. this week however, i have had 3 classes cancelled because it's too warm/rainy - snow and water typically don't coexist. i shouldn't lie and say that it isn't a relief - after what happened at my first ski experience on monday, trust me, i could wait a little longer - and most of all, it gives me time to catch up on things i would much rather do, namely watch dvds and read ridonkulous fiction.
but back to the sticks of being i am in now - i walk around in outrageous clothing and this tao look on my face, trying to recreate urbana but coming off as pretentious (thin line, thin line). just this evening, craving human interaction from afar, i stride to the student union on the pretext of obtaining a dessert but really to pretend as if i could hop to a trendy cafe in moments of distraction. but it's not the same (woe).
at this point, the discerning reader is likely to be thinking "why on earth is he typing such a long post. he doesn't even have an exam soon." oh, but you are wrong. piles of internship applications i am sitting by, but none have i started on. summer 2005 - new york/washington d.c./los angeles/ san francisco/ london/ grantham?

p.s. i don't know how it started. okay i do. i began to tell querying friends about my return home and without giving much thought, i said 'most likely summer' and then telling them about internships and all the exciting things i had planned. after a few iterations, i began to believe it myself - that i was coming home for summer. i've actually started to look forward to it, not the 40 hour journey, but the food, friends, and the extremely cheap things to buy (by comparison of course). i've even been thinking of a trip to bali or phuket, but it would be in bad taste to visit the latter while the former is still too dangerous. and of course singapore. how i crave katong laksa even though i hardly took advantage of presby's proximity to this lala/santan haven.