guess what i found?
There are things that are troubling me now. For one, the A-Level results (here forth known as Results) will be released in 48 hours time. My other troubles are pertaining to the latter.
I am now trying to work out my options by looking at three different scenarios.

Excellent Results: By excellent, I think 4As would be good enough.
It would be a tremendous blessing to obtain results like these because I’m not too confident about Computing. Suppose I do obtain 4As, I’d send my results to the American and British Universities I’m applying to and hope that it would put my application in good light. Secondly, I would go scholarship hunting. Scholarships are not hard to come by with results as good as this. I will have to pray hard that a scholarship will come my way. On the Singapore side, I would be applying for a place in the Law faculty, even though that isn’t my passion. My second option would be to do Economics at Singapore Management University, prayerfully with a scholarship. I have also applied for a scholarship from The Star to do the ‘American Transfer Program’ at KDU. My decision would have to be based on the living environments and the cost factor.

Good results: Good would be two to three As. Although this would be good enough for me, a scholarship would be difficult to obtain. However, it probably would not be as hard to apply for a place in NUS to do law or economics with an ASEAN scholarship. Again, will still be waiting for the results of The Star scholarship. As for the overseas side, I will be praying that either Hamilton or Union would consider my application seriously whilst considering large sums of financial aid. Messiah College remains an option for all three scenarios.

Bad results: One thing to remember is that whatever results I obtain, it is part of God’s plan and destiny for my life. “God works for the good of those who love him”. Bad results does not necessarily mean that it is the end of the world for me. Many good things happen from bad things. Messiah would be the strongest option followed by local degree programs, and hopefully, Union and Hamilton would overlook this blemish and still grant me financial aid to attend their institution.

Foremost, I would like to pursue an undergraduate degree in a respectable institution which would be academically challenging and is attended by students of like-mind. Secondly, but still quite as important as the first goal is that I use as little of my parent’s money as possible, seeing as they do not have much and that they have other plans for their funds. I would seek to be as little of a burden as possible so that when I graduate, I would not ‘owe’ my education to anybody and not feel obliged to do anything for anybody. Thirdly, I would appreciate the chance to study in an overseas university (discounting Singapore, because Singapore already feels like a second home) firstly because of exposure, and secondly, I want to be disconnected from my family (not in a bad sense, but not in a good sense either).

these people www.rhodesscholar.org obviously:
1) have more than 24 hours in a day
2) never sleep
3) are not human

philosophical bullsh*t
to celebrate the return of my notebook, i shall indulge you with a post.
i was at philly yesterday with the international students for a day of fun-filled activities (at the risk of sounding cheesy). the day started with me waking up to the majestic ringing of the telephone and then the realization that i had overslept. sh*t, i thought, and rushed to beautify myself while everyone else waited for me. van ride to philly was unnecessarily bumpy because i decided to sit in the backseat and try to study for philosophy (did 3 pages, frick). stopped at camden, at rutgers university to park the van and took a train to philly. on arrival at said city, i insisted on eating malaysian food so the group trooped to 'penang' a malaysian restaurant in chinatown. after lunch, the group split up and i visited the philadelphia museum of art where i contemplated works by van gogh, monet, picasso, and a slew of renaissance artists who had a knack of drawing nude pictures, porn in the name of art! left museum and couldn't find the bus to get back to the city so we spent an hour waiting for random buses.
today was also pretty good. i tagged along with the asian students' fellowship to a chinese church where the promise of an authentic chinese lunch awaited. service was weird because translator was extraordinarily bad but i picked up some new words for my limited chinese vocab 'ping an' and 'shi le'. and i had chinese food. and i even ta paued some back to the dorm. and its waiting for me in the fridge as i type. slept for a good 2 hours in the afternoon although i was supposed to start on a paper. went to work and after cleaning the bathroom, i come out and realize its dark already...the sun sets at 530 here, don't ask me what time it rises cause i don't know, i'm never awake. packed my bag with a ton of econs books and my newly repaired notebook and headed for the library. worked on the paper and now i'm back in my room languishing in my chair, bliss.
philosophy is still my toughest and most incoherent class. i remain that philosophy is the mask fools use to cloak their ignorance. how can you argue for causality a priori? what the heck do we need to know whether we know what we know via absconditus, via aeternitatis, or through recollection? will we ever know for certain anyway? it does help with christian theology though because it makes aristotle and plato's arguments more understandable.
my roommates seem all too eager to please each other and i don't know where that leaves me. i'm more contented just doing stuff on my own.
i just looked at my calendar at realized that i have 3 papers to write in the next week, thanksgiving week. i'm visiting my roommate's home for a few days then it's crunch time for me.
someone showed me this site and i almost shat ( much cooler way to say shitted) in my pants from laughing so hard. here it is http://maddox.xmission.com/irule.html .
alright, later.