recipe to try: blending peanut butter with your favourite ice cream flavour!
i'm looking for a good chocolate ice cream mud pie along the lines of those commonly found at NYDC. you got any?

i finally have something to say: i got my us visa! no nus or smu for me.

i think the zwan video 'lyric' looks like a friggin guitar ensemble performance. haha.

has anyone noticed that exactly during the frenzy of the sars spectacle, scientists finished mapping the human genome. and yet, they still can't find a cure for it, or for hiv for that matter.

why are people so alarmed when i drive?

i'm a SWINGING single
somehow, i like the sound of that.
makes it sound very playboy-esque, swilling martinis and the works.

hey, check out a vj tsd yr1 student's blog ... my ex-junior rachel . then follow the links on her blog to read about more intriguing people from the very weird subject tsd!

to save me the trouble of what i'm thinking now, i'll cut and paste from my conversation with emil :
my dad told me yesterday that he may lose his job
what a fucker
can't save enough to put children through uni
did i tell you that my family members are screw ups?
my dad failed o levels
my mum nearly failed too...
both are non grads
bro is a total loser who did badly in his o levels, flunked a sem at uni then decided to transfer to some super unknown uni where he got his degree
dad had to pull strings to get him his job

since we're on the 'i'm gay' topic, here's a funny quiz.

This Guy: you like strangers. Freak.


Which guy are you destined to have sex with?
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you're asshole.


What swear word are you?
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i can't help but be amused at this photo (ripped off lance's album, thanks lance!). but i wish it had been a clearer shot. sigh.

reading the archives is like scratching fingernails across the blacboard.
it's horrible.
what was i thinking?
i hope i've gained some maturity and some helpings of sense along the way.

hum dee dum, everything's fine with the blog now. i'm a genius i tell you.

sigh i give up.
does anyone know why the fonts for the archives are wonky?

well, does this happen to all of you or do i have the worst luck (and relatives) in the world?
so today, my maternal uncle (this is a different uncle) comes trooping in and tells me :-
- that if i don't make my first million by the time i'm 30, i'll never be successful (in whose eyes may i ask? yours?)
- the unemployment rate in singapore is 9-10% when last i checked, it was around 5%
- that the future is in biotechnology and electronic engineering (hmmm...we'll see about that. i think a few years ago he was just saying the same about the IT industry)
- i need to know what i want to do specifically (when i insisted that i was doing econs because it was a general degree, i liked the subject and it would lead me to a job in the corporate sector, which i want to be headed)
- i will be lonely and depressed in the US (mister, i already am in malaysia, i don't need to go all the way there to be depressed)
sigh i know there was a lot more of fucking bullshit he tried to drum into me, but all the while i was just staring vacantly into his eyes (must be polite what) and structuring this post. i mean this is a man whose two children are far from illustrous careers themselves. one went to new zealand to study mass comm (of all places....gee...so 'glamourous' huh) and the other one is a high school dropout who prob can't spell his name backwards.
and all this while, my fucked up bitch mother is standing there telling me what a failure i'll be and how all her friends children who went to the US are so screwed up, they can't find jobs and they made their parents broke and depressed. so angry now.....i will prove them wrong, if that's the only motivation for studying hard.

i have some thoughts to share.
hands up those of you who think that what i'm doing (going to Messiah College (to you, some weird, hick Christian college)) is really dumb when i could go back to Singapore.
i know some people think that way. my parents think i'm making the worst mistake of my life. my parents friends think the same. now my uncle, whom i hardly see, thinks that it's a 'waste' (of what, i don't know).
well, exccuuusssseeee me mr uncle-who-did-not-get-a-degree-till-he-was-forty-something-and-did-his-MBA-at-a-super-ulu-university-in-australia-and-thinks-he's-damn-big-now, i happen to be really excited about going to Messiah even though i might not be as successful as you in your eyes.
what happened to the 'follow your heart theory'
or the 'do what makes you happy' and 'take risks' mottoes(spelling, help!)
right now, i don't quite know what i want. of course monetary wise, i'd wish to be financially stable. i wouldn't want to rely on anyone else. and i'm sure that a degree from Messiah can get you a decent job, even if it's a clerical job back here in malaysia that'll pay RM1000 a month. but that's not something that i worry about, i mean let god do the worrying for now. what i want is a wholesome education and recapture some of the fun i've missed. i want to see the USA for what it is, not for what i thought i saw it as. it might not be what i expect it to be, i could hate it just as much as i hated singapore, but it's an experience nevertheless isn't it. and really, i've been given such a big opportunity to study in the states, why not just go?
so really, tell me honestly, you think i'm making a mistake?

i find this photo so appealing. maybe it's because it's the person i dream to be, or maybe i'm .... GAY! (cue YMCA song).

first things first, yesterday was the last day of my short lived career as a vacation trainee at this little money-churning, cold and heartless firm known as KPMG. i am free, it's giddy, it's exciting....i just have so much time on my hands, i feel like a kid with a bucket full of money in a candy store. i've never been this relieved before since after the As, and in some ways, this is more relieving.
so it was my birthday yesterday. it's funny you know because usually on my birthdays, not many people would call or message when i really want them too being the attention seeker i am. but this year, i thought i'd keep it low key because really, flambayancy is so passe. i just wanted a small gathering and catch up with friends, and i didn't tell anyone it was a birthday celebration. and i told the people who knew not to tell anyone. is that how people think that when they want someone to keep a secret, it actually means that they want it blown all over the place? well, i was accused of just that. and no, i had no intentions for presents or a free meal, all i wanted was to have a night of fun with friends, because really, i am a pretty changed person. so i'm 20..hurray. for all the people who went all out of their way to send me an overseas sms and wish me on their blogs, thank you so very much. i will try to remember yours too and make yours special okay?
i've regained a bit of my confidence. smu offered me a place in their double degree program to do econs and accounting...i'm not sure whether i should accept. i know i'll suffer in singapore, i just really need to see life for much more than what i think it is. and i feel that being in a college that does not have too rigorous academic standards might just do the trick.
why oh why is no one holding serve in the clement-hewitt match.

the past two days have been, to say the least, hectic. make that three days. i've been working wayyy overtime. 10pm for thurs and friday and i even made an appearance on saturday. plus, i caught x men 2 twice, once on friday for the midnight show, and i liked it quite a bit so i agreed to accompany a friend to watch it on saturday too, because we were too tired from window shopping for a mother's day gift (however futile that attempt was). i got my mother a card, when i originally wanted to get her a foot massager or a back massager. oh well, beats nothing, considering the fact that we hardly speak.
i found out today that my parents read my mail (at least i know my dad does) because he asked me a question which i knew he didnt know because i didnt tell anybody. and when i come home from work sometimes, my drawers look like they've been opened. is this normal?

Raffles Institution


The School That Suited You Most!
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wishful thinking.

this was a sham...i tried like 7 times and every single time i was a 'company worker', so i was pondering on it..and then it suddenly dawned on me that you're supposed to click all of them...duh.

You will rise to be a...

Director

You're resiliant against hardship and adaptable to change. You are responsible, accountable, and an excellent judge of character with uncompromising integrity.
How High Will You Rise On The Corporate Ladder?

okay, so a combination of being poor, suicidal and hard work will get you into cornell.

so far, i've got into dartmouth, brown, penn and princeton....and a bad weed habit.
#$%^&
where's columbia?

Yale
You're second best, and you know it. Still, those
riding the crimson wave may be slightly
smarter, slightly more prestigious, but you
know you're hipper. I mean, you're not hip --
your a nerd, for fuck's sake -- but you're
hipper.


Which Ivy League University is right for YOU?
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tee hee....this is so funny. off to take the test again, with different answers!

Angel (Warren Worthington III):
Powers: Natural feathered wings, lightweight bone
structure.


What X-Men character are you?
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i'm sorry to tell you guys this but i don't think i'll be making the trip down to singapore now, not ever. prob not until june/july. i'm just so sick of the singapore education system and the f&%ed up buggers in NUS who think the world of themselves. who discriminate indiscriminately. who a have shovel stuck up their asses. i'm just tired of this whole asian attitude that just because you have the upper hand, you've got the right to be rude, demanding and selfish. so to those of you going to NUS or wherever, all the best, please don't change.